The Cut of the Growing Edge

The Cut of the Growing Edge

 
Humans have an uncanny way of always choosing the hard road to learn. Sometimes I look back at my life and I think hey I knew better. Of course I knew better. So why didn't I listen to my gut, so I didn’t turn into this broken heart'ed girl again?

“Snow White: Why did I let her in? Didn't I know she was bad? I did. Of course I did. But I also knew that I couldn't keep the door closed all my life just because it was dangerous. Just because there was a chance that I might get hurt.”

I wish I knew the answer. I think we all would like to choose the less painful road but if we still are struggling without 20/20 vision at least we can learn from our mistakes. In the last 2 yrs., I have been doing a lot of work on myself. I first did the “Calling in the One” course for myself before I took the coaching course. It was due to my incredible growth that I decided to pursue coaching.

In calling in the “One” we talk a lot about our growing edge. What I mean by this is where instead of making negative meaning from something that has happened to us. We try and look for the lesson to be gleaned. Therefore, we are always growing stronger and closer to our goal instead of blaming ourselves or others for our disappointments.

And of course sometimes that is harder, doing it then just giving lip serves. An example from my own life is upon the dissolution of my last relationship. I was completely bereft I was at the bottom of the rope holding on with nails. And to be frank, I honestly was only coping due to my 2 month old little girl that I had to take care of. Abby was sunshine bottled up in this little tiny body. I am so grateful for her neediness. It drove me to live and in time to grow again.

I had known for a long time that the relationship wasn’t in mine or my partner’s best interest, trying to love someone into something they’re not is not healthy for either party. But I remember telling friends I love him, sadly I now realize that though you may love, if you don’t have core beliefs and dreams in common, you’re in a no win situation, and to perpetuate it, you’re only harming both of you.

So, I am so grateful for his spectacular ending to our 10 and half year relationship. It meant I could never go back; my only choices were to die or grow. Thank god I chose to grow. I learned so much from that relationship and of course none of it was bad. Most important thing I learned was my own worth is god given. No man or anyone else can give it to me or take it away. But I can choose to be blind and not see it. I believe that not seeing ours truly, is in epidemic proportions in our world. Our measuring sticks are flawed, and as result we diminish ourselves and what we are capable of.

“Snow White: You're cold. You're cold, Virginia. How did you become so cold? You are still lost in the forest. But lonely, lost girls like us can rescue themselves. You are standing on the edge of greatness.” -The Tenth Kingdom

So my dear friends, when you are broken, bleeding or simply just frustrated look at your life, look for the lesson and grow. It’s ok to fail; it’s ok to get broken again. But if you don’t choose to grow there is no life.

In Love and Light,

Jenna Bertrim

Reiki Master- Author