The Dilema

The Dilema 

Lately, I have been looking at my life and just what I am doing in it.  Every day that passes by, I am reflecting on what I’ve put my energy into and seeing if I made the most out of my time. I look at my dreams and see if they are in alignment with everything I am doing and everything I want to do.

When viewing my life in the present and areas of it I can control, I feel more inclined to ask questions to myself.  Did I make headway with my book?  Have I learned something new about cultural competency or multiculturalism?  Am I ahead of the game in school?  Did I finish all I wanted to get done with grant writing for Fab-5 (the non-profit I work for)?  All of these questions are evaluated to help me with my decision making and see where my life is taking me.  I graduate this spring from my undergraduate program and though I have a plan, many areas of my life are unknown.  Do I go on next year to graduate school or do I take a year off and put all my energy into getting my book established along with my other areas of emphasis?  Do I follow my dreams or go into the corporate workforce again? 

All of these thoughts I’ve had to weigh and though I am not fully at my final decision, the constant questions and evaluations of what my day-to-day looks like has helped me to be clearer.  I think of how life is and how it can be over in a blink. 

This doesn’t mean I want to make hasty decisions throwing caution to the wind but I do want to remember what I am living for and act accordingly.  Look at your life, ask questions, and know that it doesn’t have to be completely figured out as long as you are constantly evaluating. My father, knowing I have a lot going on, gave me this and I wanted to share it with you.  It has helped me with the many decisions that I have in life.  Not because it is a solution, but because, when reading it, I am reminded of what matters.  I read it every morning now and I hope it speaks to you as it has done for me.

"So live your life that the fear of death can never enter your heart. Trouble no one about their religion; respect others in their views and demand that they respect yours. Love your life, perfect your life, beautify all things in your life. Seek to make your life long and its purpose in the service of your people. Prepare a noble death song for the day when you go over the great divide.   Always give a word or a sign of salute when meeting or passing a friend, even a stranger, when in a lonely place. Show respect to all people and grovel to none.   When you arise in the morning give thanks for the food and for the joy of living. If you see no reason for giving thanks, the fault lies only in yourself. Abuse no one and no thing, for abuse turns the wise ones to fools and robs the spirit of its vision.   When it comes your time to die, be not like those whose hearts are filled with the fear of death, so that when their time comes they weep and pray for a little more time to live their lives over again in a different way. Sing your death song and die like a hero going home." -Tecumseh Poem from Act of Valor

-Tasha Ina Church

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