Maintaining Passion and Purpose In Challenging Times
There are times that passion is hard to come by. Mainly, these times come when the world around you seems to be on autopilot. You are a bystander in your own life. Everything seems to encompass another stressful piece needing to be fixed, figured out, decided, changed, or thrown out.
During this holiday season, I have had the luxury of a mini break from college and at first, I started filling up my schedule with plans. Then pretty soon, I saw no break at all, just a To-Do-List that didn't seem to end. I felt overwhelmed and tired and my break hadn't even started. That's when something happened. I realized I was planning my life away.
There was no passion for me when looking at extreme compartmentalization. I had put family into a section, projects into another, boyfriend into another, research studies, my children's book, and Christmas shopping into sections as well. Where was the fun time in my holiday? I saw it on the schedule but did I feel passionate about what I was doing? I felt autopilot kick in and I was watching myself race from place to place, like a puppet and someone else was holding my strings.
I looked at my calendar and started to take out a whole bunch of stuff! That To-Do-List turned to skin and bones. Then I thought about what I was doing right then and there, letting the wheels turn. What did I want to do right now?... Perhaps read? I had a stack of books I have to read for pursuit in higher learning... Statistics weren't giving me goosebumps with anticipation unfortunately. Right after this moment I was notified that I had a package come in the mail...
There was no passion for me when looking at extreme compartmentalization. I had put family into a section, projects into another, boyfriend into another, research studies, my children's book, and Christmas shopping into sections as well. Where was the fun time in my holiday? I saw it on the schedule but did I feel passionate about what I was doing? I felt autopilot kick in and I was watching myself race from place to place, like a puppet and someone else was holding my strings.
I looked at my calendar and started to take out a whole bunch of stuff! That To-Do-List turned to skin and bones. Then I thought about what I was doing right then and there, letting the wheels turn. What did I want to do right now?... Perhaps read? I had a stack of books I have to read for pursuit in higher learning... Statistics weren't giving me goosebumps with anticipation unfortunately. Right after this moment I was notified that I had a package come in the mail...
When I opened it, I felt like a five year old ripping open an early Christmas gift. And there in that box was a book I had preorder last year that I completely forgot was coming (thank you amazon for remembering). I had a two minute geek out moment like I used to in my teen years, dancing around and holding my book like it was a trophy and I had come in first place.
Doing these constant similes and references of different points of my life brings me to my point-find something you love, whatever that may be and make time for it. It doesn't have to be a book, but it does have to be something that impassions you. Something you can do when no one else is around. Something that makes you feel free. And believe me, when that freedom comes back, passion and purpose re-enter your life with a new found vigor!
Happy Holidays!
*Twitter: @TashaInaChurch
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