I Am Beautiful

I Am Beautiful

All my life I was told I was beautiful. As a kid, I would look at the ground while my mom or anyone around me would look at me and say, "Say thank you." I would feel forced then whisper, "Thank you.” They would laugh and reply, "Are you thanking the ants?" I'd be embarrassed because I didn't like the attention.

As a grown-up, I would go home with random people randomly complimenting me without the intent of asking me out. I would appreciate it but oddly enough, if I didn't get a compliment I would think "Do I look like a mess today?"

 I have been hit on by the likes of Michael Jordan, Floyd Mayweather (yes, MJ and I am not bragging)—even was in music videos. You would think I thought I was beautiful or had high self-esteem. NO, nope, nada...I am going somewhere with this...
 

I thought, ‘If MJ was hitting on me, who else is he hitting on?’ Being on music video sets and not being picked the "main girl" would just add to my insecurities. 

Now, with the combination of positive thinking, self-talk and affirmations, along with doing what I love, being who I love, I can honestly say with all my heart that "I am beautiful". It took saying, "I love you" to myself and, "I love me" and “You are beautiful”. True beauty is love for self, true beauty is within. I now can also see it in the mirror—not my flaws, not compared too, not how I was, not what someone thinks but who I am & what I think of myself. It took me to say it to myself for me to believe it... 

Who are you? Are you beautiful? What are you saying to yourself?

With love, 

Beautiful