Overcoming insecurities
Mirror, mirror on the wall, can you tell me my worth? Can you tell me who I am? Can you tell me what I am? And what I am meant to do? I stand naked in front of you and I see my imperfections. I see why you will never tell me I am the fairest of them all. I don’t look like a model. God! I don’t even look like the girl next door.
I look in the mirror and I see a little girl with tears streaming down her face, nose dripping, and eyes bloodshot. And I want to scream why?! Why do you hate me?! God, why am I so wrong?! What the hell is so wrong with me?!
The answer is silence of course. If you have ever heard the divine speak it’s in whispers and in this state, they wait until I have cried the self-pity out of my system. Standing and holding me with unwavering faith, the ego will shut-up and sense will return. Then the loving words come:
“Little one, look again. Look in your eyes. Look with the eyes of love.”
Then when the deluge happens it is because I see beauty and I see perfection. There is only one Jenna, there is only one soul with these talents, strengths, and weaknesses. There is only one me!
The tears now stem from joy, gratitude, and relief. I was destined to be this woman with these scars and wounds. They do not make me ugly. They make me strong and so damn beautiful. I would not change my past. I would not risk not being me. But each day, I look in the mirror and I see my evolving spirit. As I choose to walk this path made just for me, I see the shadows leave and more of my radiance comes though.
Marianne Williamson said: “Our deepest fear is not that we are inadequate. Our deepest fear is that we are powerful beyond measure. It is our light not our darkness, that frightens us.”
Are you hiding in your shadows, are you denying your light? When you look in the mirror who do you see?
I slowly am now seeing the blinding light that I AM. My eyes are acclimating. I promise you that if you look in the mirror, really look, you will see a beautiful child of the divine.
Mirror, mirror on the wall, who is the fairest of them all?
“The effulgent one, the one who shines their light so bright that they are a beacon in the wilderness.”
Jenna Bertrim
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