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Follow YOUR dreams
We find ourselves constantly "following" with everyone's idea of what life is about that the majority of us don't educate ourselves. We take formal education to be "enough", then we fall in line of what our parents, society or friends are doing. Most learn after college that they still don't have the skills to survive in the real world. We paint this ugly picture filled with lack, limitations and failure that we forget who controls the stroke, holds the brush and what would give us a blank pallet.What I am trying to say here is that what you consider your "dream life" YOUR dream?....Do you follow YOUR dreams?
Well of course it is....you might say or why wouldn't be?
I found myself almost running to Atlanta around 22 to pursue my "dreams". I wanted to model and get the heck out of my hometown Seattle. I did just that and it didn't take much to find my way.
I wanted to be in music videos, work behind the scenes and be featured in XXL type mags. I did it all but the magazines but I had the opportunity to do it and then some. It came easy although there were down sides. I never appreciated any of it. I was extremely hard on myself and I knew it was not my passion. I would sometimes come to sets hung over from the night before. I never got in the gym like I should have. And then I had an AHA moment, "maybe I was doing this because people told me all my life I was pretty"...
It was a sad vicious cycle because I still dealt with major insecurities! I told myself if do anything with it to use this(modeling background) as a way for when I write this great book, that swam in my mind ready to get to land, to tell the world we can be a "video" girl, a model or whatever "negative" outlook and still be self-educated and intelligent...
Many, many attempts and cracks at unlocking the combination of what it takes to live your dream. I can now happily say, I have failed time and time again. Looking back at my 1st attempt at making that shift was when I was "in love" and moving to LA to be with my boyfriend at the time. Within two weeks I was "homeless". He was a director and now looking back with new eyes, I'd say my shift didn't fit him in this new picture I was painting. What I am saying is you're going to fail when you decide to follow your dreams. It's when you decide to change something crazy sh*t will happen and you may find some people won't fit... but most importantly who's dream are you pursuing and what is the small quiet voice inside your head telling you?
You will be going against the current sometimes going after what YOU want. When you follow YOUR dreams. The wind can sway your boat but remember who is captain! It took deep soul searching, spiritual recovery's, years of not seeing a sprout but something (I can't explain it) kept telling me that there is something much greater than what I was doing... even now I hear that voice so everyday I take a step! And so can you :)
"A journey of a thousand miles begins with a single step."- Lao Tzu
With Love,
With Love,
Hi Divine Table,
ReplyDeleteThank you for your candid story. It is wonderful that you are able to hear the quiet voice inside telling you your dreams. Many people drug that voice out with well, drugs, or entertainment, relationships, food, money, lust—almost anything. The call of our dreams is indeed the call of the wild and requires wild actions—but not erratic and careless wild—I mean consciously wild—like a lioness stalking her prey. When we are driven by the desire to follow a dream that will touch the world, even if that means the old lady across the street, nothing should stand in our way. Relationships are one of the biggest dream-stealers—we get so caught up in feelings that the voice of our heart’s desire is soon drowned out. Of course, I am not suggesting one stay single or out of relationships, I am merely saying that the call to follow our dreams, to steer our ship, to begin our journeys must be obeyed if we are ever to be truly happy—relationship or not. And following dreams is more than the high that a quick relationship brings—following a dream means commitment and devotion even, as you say, in the face of failure. Failures are stepping stones to those following their dreams. And feelings are not the goal of our dreams anyway. And while it is true you are the captain of your own ship, a good captain never sails alone. She has a trusty first mate and a loyal crew. And no, I am not talking in circles here saying now you do need to be in a relationship to achieve your dreams. I am saying that those who follow and reach their dreams have mentors, guides, dear and trusted friends to help them along the way (and disciplined thoughts make for a helpful crew also). Especially in “spiritual recovery” as you call it. I need those who have gone before me to mark the trails and post the mile markers to give me hope and strength to carry on. Oh, and one more thing, I couldn’t agree more about modern education being a factor in stealing people’s dreams (my words, not yours). So much of what happens (and I’ve been a teacher for 15 years, so I know) in schools deadens the will, and the desire to learn and to create. There are good people in schools though (I like to think I’m one of them) that try to inspire and support kids to follow their dreams and to believe in themselves. Too often however, teachers and adults live in unconscious (or conscious) resentment at themselves for not truly living their own dreams that they try to steal other’s dreams. But I won’t end this comment on a downer—I have also been toying with the phrase “follow your dreams.” In an upcoming book I am publishing and on twitter I often refer to “dancing with our dreams” rather than following them. For our dreams don’t want us to follow them, they want us to dance with them, run with them, sing with them, rejoice, and help heal the world with them—in short, they want us to be in love with them. Cheers and blessings to you.
Joseph Anthony of the Wonder Child Blog
Many people let beauty blind them. One way we let beauty blind us is that we tend to focus so much on the external beauty of the vessel. We assume that beauty is the prize, and so we never look for the treasure inside the vessel. Beauty was our only goal. As a result we want to possess the beauty – to own it. We do this because we are taught that external beauty is important.
ReplyDeleteWe do not comprehend that a woman’s beauty can isolate her. No matter how smart she is, or how amazing she is, she is afraid that no one will ever see past her beauty to “see” who she really is. Companions that are capable of looking deeper to see all of her are afraid to approach. They expect her to judge them in the same way they are judging her – on beauty. They are afraid they will not measure up to others that come calling. Unfortunately, the ones that do come calling are only interested in conquering her to boost their egos. Her beauty creates a fog that these callers cannot see past. They are so addicted to her beauty that it is not possible for them to see all that she is.
A woman can feel incarcerated in her own beauty. She wonders if her companion loves her, or is just infatuated with how she looks. If it is her looks, she knows she is exactly one pretty face away from being abandoned. Being appreciated only for her external beauty seems to be out of her control. The answer to her dilemma is so simple many beautiful women never find it. This goddess must learn to see past her outer beauty, and see the beauty within her too. To find that inner beauty, she must clear all the emotional baggage from her attic. She has been shining her bright light through the dirty lens of her emotional pain, which diminishes a person’s beauty and light. If for no other reason, this is a good reason for letting go and healing all your emotional baggage. When a woman does this, her beauty soars from the strength of a flashlight to the intensity of a star being born. Actually, I should say reborn since the light was already there. In finding her beauty and power she radiates through her outer beauty like never before.
When the goddess finds the treasure within that allows her to feel her true value, she will no longer accept anyone that does not value all of her. She will draw into her orbit those that value essence, as she will only be drawn to those that have also found their essence. As she claims the power and beauty within her, it will radiate through her outer beauty. The lens of her outer and inner beauty will align magnifying her beauty exponentially. As she accepts the goddess within her, she becomes the lighthouse that lights the way for those few that have evolved enough to know that sometimes beauty is a just a vessel that obscures the real treasure inside. She will no longer attract someone that uses her pain to manipulate her. This newly resurrected goddess will attract a mate through her spirit, and they will have the capacity to appreciate all of her.
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ReplyDeleteYour words and responses brings so much warmth in my heart! Thank you for sharing!
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